Moment of Weakness

Sometimes…

A familiar place.
A word. A sound. A scent.

I don’t forgive. I can’t forget.
Maybe that’s why I can never let go.

Felt like it just happened yesterday.

The memories so real.
The pain so fresh.
The scar so raw.

As painful as it is, I like re-living the whole ordeal over & over again in my heart.

Nobody knew me the way he did. Yet, he loved me.

That door is closed. Possibly forever.

I have been alone for so long that I have difficulty letting new people into my world.

My self-defense mechanism programmed for self-preservation & survival.

In my own world, away from everyone.
Only memories & the lessons learnt.

I enjoy the quiet. The peace.
No drama. No trauma. No emotional turmoil.

Unable to let myself feel.
Enjoying the feeling of not feeling…

Yes, I need to remain this way.
It’s the only way to keep myself sane.

The Saturdays – Missing You

I miss missing you
I miss missing you

Where’s the pain when you walk out the door
It doesn’t hurt like it used to before
Where’s the love that we couldn’t ignore
It doesn’t kick like a pill anymore
Where’s the thrill at the end of our fights
Where’s the heat when we turn off the lights

I just miss all the miss that we made
When we still have the passion to hate

I miss missing you, sometimes
I miss hurting you ’til you cry
I miss watching you as you try
Try not to end up in tears
Begging to get back together
I just want you to be
To be stuck in a second forever
So don’t freak out and believe.

Sometimes I’m just missing
Missing You
I miss missing you

There’s a dark cloud pulling me in
That’s the girl I was breathing in sin
There’s a blind force letting it win
And it’s longing to tear us apart
I get high when you’re making me weak
Let me down ’til I crawl on my knee’s

I just miss all the mess that we made
When we still have the passion to hate

I miss missing you sometimes
I miss hurting you ’til you cry
I miss watching you as you try
Try not to end up in tear’s
Begging to get back together
I just want you to be
To be stuck in this second forever
So don’t freak out if I leave

Sometimes I’m just missing, missing you
I miss missing you

Miss missing, miss missing, miss missing
I wanna crush in your arms at the other side of the world
Miss missing, miss missing, miss missing
I wanna die for you ’cause love is only true if it hurts

I miss missing you sometimes
I miss hurting you ’til you cry
I miss watching you as you try
Try not to end up in tear’s (ooh)
Begging to get back together (together)
I just want you to be (want you to be, yeah)
To be stuck in this second forever
So don’t freak out if I leave

Sometimes I’m just missing (I’m missing)
Missing you (no, missing you)
I miss missing you

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About iamanonconformist

"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring." By Marilyn Monroe, 1926 -1962.
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